My
soul keeps knocking up against the walls around my life
With
fingers torn and bloody from climbing up to see the light
At
dusk all you can do is hope the night won’t fall too hard
‘Cause shadows cut like diamonds and they always go too far
Kicking off the fear like a quilt that’s grown too warm
Still I find it in a knot around my ankles come the dawn
I
made the quilt myself from the ripped shreds of my life
And
spun my heart to make a thread to sew it all up tight
Patterns in the colors, meaning in the seams
Underneath it all I smother, inside my head I scream
Please tell me to go away, I’m just too blind to run
I
stumble on your doorstep crying, “My love’s just begun”
Let
me breathe your breath in mine, touch your arms like night
and then
Feel
my eyes, taste my words, believe my life, and breathe me in
Please tell me to go away while I’m still to numb to cry
The
shattered glass within my throat won’t let me ask you why
Dance me through the broken streets past the demons black
and sweet
To a
quiet room with curtains drawn where I can go to sleep
I
cannot spend my time alone, I feel myself at sea
I
will not spend my time with friends who can’t see through to
me
How
can you ask for help when you can’t justify your pain
How
can you ask for help when you’ve got yourself to blame
I
will not stop to look for peace, at best I’ll just pass
through
But
damn the demons in my guts who won’t let me bury you
